This last week I have been craving for a drink. WTF?
Ten years sober, despite a three month glitch during Covid when I dabbled with drinking again, and suddenly, I’m at home parenting, cooking dinner and wham…all I wanted was red wine.
It has been the strangest week. I thought this craving would pass. It hasn’t. Just now I was looking online for specials on gin. It’s been over three years since I drank gin. What is that about?
That’s when it hit me…time to start blogging again. If I’m experiencing this, perhaps others have done in the past or are finding themselves with similar thoughts.
I’ve been resisting the urge to drink through gritted teeth, and each day I have been edging closer to sneaking a drink from my partners stash. Obviously, this is the last thing I want to do.
I’ve been there countless times over the years – the regrets, the self flagellation, the anger of relapse. I’ve also moved beyond those unhelpful emotions many times and found acceptance, intentionality and joy. Those latter feelings are much more satisfying.
I feel better already. I’ve also just purchased an online book – ‘this naked mind. Control alcohol’ by Annie Grace. Anyone read it? It got excellent reviews.
I simply want to throw all I can at this craving, and blogging and reading a new book about drinking seems a good place to start. Time will tell.
Thanks all and talk soon.
Boozebrain